How I Coped...
In my last video / blog titled “It’s My Birthday And I Want It To Go Away”, I briefly referenced a follow-up video. I wanted to go into more detail about why I was feeling the way I was feeling and why I didn’t want to acknowledge my birthday this year.You can watch my video here: How I Coped Through My 50th Birthday Without My Mom.
In this video, I go into depth about what it felt like to have to have my 50th birthday without my mom.
To some, it may seem odd that I was so affected by celebrating my 50th birthday without my mom. Others may completely relate.
I decided to tell my whole family that I didn’t want this birthday acknowledged. I didn’t want a cake. I didn’t want gifts. All I wanted was for it to go away. In an upcoming video / blog, you’ll see what happened when my family took the Necrophonic app next door to my mom’s house. I was desperate to hear her come through. I was desperate to feel her with me on my birthday. Having seen the Necrophonic app used by one of my favorite YouTubers (Moe Sargi), I was hopeful. You don’t want to miss that video.
The video that coincides with this blog was very hard to make. For those of you who don't know, the majority of my blog entries on my website are associated with a video on my YouTube Channel. To make sure you don't miss anything, subscribe to my YouTube Channel here!
While that video was hard to make, I knew it would help me AND maybe help someone else. I came back to blogging and vlogging after my mom died because I knew it would help. Not only would it help by being able to talk about it, it would help to keep my mind and body occupied which is truly how I cope with a lot of hardships. There are so many ways people cope with the loss of a loved one and I have truly found that talking to all of you through my videos and blogs help me. The fact that it could help someone else is an awesome bonus! I hope I can reach people. I hope I can help someone realize they’re not alone or crazy for feeling the way they are feeling.
So, take a moment and watch my video as it goes very much in depth about how I coped through my birthday without my mom. Click Here.
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